My Engravings

time and tide

2010-03-21T23:03:00.002+08:00

in all your skeptism in all your faith, do believe that one question we all ask.

What happens? After we die.
Can you truly accept that you turn to dust, that you become a memory, that once forgotten, you are no more.
I guess many in their search for meaning, lazily and rather comfortably, fall back on this conclusion.

THen there is question of who's religion is right?
Must one whom belief lies in one religion, be condemned in another's hell?
Is it not that if you live by morals you have at least reached a balance and be judge accordingly? Why is there a need to condemn anyone who has a different faith?

Why not change your perspective and open to this concept...
If all religions teach you to live morally, if all holy messengers came to spread the same word, however, as humans we are, we all percieved them differently.
Thus and naturally seperate religions were made, then molded to conform to us human's tendency for difference. In focus and bluntly put, we warped the given messages as seen fit during certain periods in time for the reason that we want to hear and see what is good to our ears.

Imagine if all the messengers came to deliver the same old message from one source that we all in our different ways know as, God. So isn't it better to accept that MY religion and YOUR religion are in many ways the same in core, so much different in package, and ultimately you throw away the packaging anyway.

Well I seek to understand what and how to attain this core, if you are curious and sincere, no matter your current religion, you can attain this knowledge that I have too. Do know that attaining knowledge and understanding it are two very different things.

asasafdc

2010-03-07T14:43:00.002+08:00

Susan Boyle's voice is a gift from the heavens manz.

Etude to my love,
it flew like a dove.
But lost of luck,
its wings doth struck.

Wings clipped and dent,
my descent into lament.
Impaled and drained,
sundered in twain.

Headlong towards Earth,
would salvation be in time,
to redress the crime,
and finally, give hearth.

-meng, Flight of Fancy, Plight of fallacy.

even if the sun dont shine

2010-02-27T23:06:00.002+08:00

Even if the Sun doesn't shine,
I'll still put my heart on the line,
to dream for one more day,
and hope that someday, love eventually stays.

2010-02-23T07:38:00.001+08:00

busy.

HAHA

2010-02-21T14:47:00.001+08:00

turtle power pew pew pew!

ok update le LOL

hee

2010-02-12T06:56:00.001+08:00

dodidodumdum.

up level XD

CNY!! time to celebrate and catch up on my SNOWBALLED hmwrk haha

woop

2010-01-31T21:38:00.002+08:00

WOOHOO!

Who wants this house made??

lolo

2010-01-23T15:12:00.005+08:00

lemme let you see my work station and one of the stuffz I do!... for now =)

haha see the paper in the middle? I actually poked 2 holes on the table as reference points for perspective LOL

tada, looks normal right? you wont believe the amt of calculation goin into one of the drawing.... see all the blue lines? its all the measuring I did XD now you know y i lose sleep hoho

knowledge can only be percieved so much,
application is paramount to understanding

2010-01-17T05:57:00.002+08:00

too much work and no play, makes one a dull boy.
too much play and no work, makes one a lazy boy.
...

too much work till you can't play, makes Jon Ang a shagged boy. T.T

chiong ah!

In all fallacies, there lies a truth,
for all fiction however far-fetched,
stems from a root of reality,
in actual fact, we have never invented,
we have only innovated.
-False Creators

lollerpoppers

2010-01-07T06:22:00.002+08:00

heh guys for this one year, most likely I'll be zombifying and slogging through one year.

My social life will most likely change alot, and I would be able to liao yuan less in Tao Chang for the period... =(
but its all for the sake of learning what I love so gimme support when ya see me ok! XD

most like likely I will come across as the living dead or smthing but must hlp me also lol

In pace in rhythm I ink my lines,
to sketch to draw this love of mine

cow

2010-01-02T09:02:00.002+08:00

I've been falling sick for 3 days, fallen sick for 1 day =.= surprisingly it takes so much longer to fall sick o.O

yaaaay school starting nxt week!! I bet for the rest its like HUUUHHHH OMMMMGGGG.... SIIIAAAANNN but after you come out to work, goin to school is a fresh idea! XD Enjoy your school ppl. Thats what my bro said to me years ago and I didn't believe him, believe me.

and yet, as numbness sets,
the eyes, unfolds the pages,
the ears, hear the words,
and thus, the book continues its unwritten lines,
and so, thee act out through spellbound binds.

workwor

2009-12-30T07:02:00.001+08:00

wake up, brush up, sit-ups, lay-ups.
to work and back, to movies and snacks.
the worlds so colorful albeit a tinge of grey.

toots

2009-12-27T07:02:00.003+08:00

In Taiwan... I learned...

that even the ground... is nice

that the 母店 in 神威 is really very holy, I respect that =)

and at a certain point I am able to defy gravity, or is it just a camera thing.. o.O?

For all the reasons that I shouldn't,
I have fallen for thee
-Forbidden

toot

2009-12-24T07:50:00.000+08:00

back. hee =D

taiwan

2009-12-16T16:29:00.002+08:00

To taiwan to taiwan, to have some fun.
With chocolate bars and lollipops in my bag,
with PsP hidden in luggage (jking XD),
with camera ready and waiting,
with a shopping list from a hundred ppl,
with LD QSNs!

=)

systematic bipolarity

2009-12-12T21:11:00.002+08:00

wei wei wei? mushi mushi?

nxt time you eat satay(vegetarian) rmb how much effort was put into poking those little buggers in XD
went to TG to LY poke poke poke satay in the morn =D
hoho Songqi and Desmond smart, long fingernails cannot poke poke.... leave me to drown in the satay sauce!!!! waaargh

haha but funz la, now my fingernails still a bit yellow.... i got.... satay-ed

ummz. what else neh? while I was poking da satay..... dunno why kip singing song lol.. gg 走火入魔

Its a pang, or a void, or you can call it, I miss you.

season

2009-12-07T22:39:00.001+08:00

After the rain, the seasons pass,
and as you all would have heard,
the sun shines again. =P

welcooom

2009-12-07T11:15:00.000+08:00

hoho

E.motional
M.assacre
O.verture

me, gone

2009-12-06T23:47:00.002+08:00

revelations, salutations.

the veil is lowering on this lunar's moon
hopes and dreams in a dried cocoon.
live to move those little steps,
pray you head where the finish line flaps.

Waaaashag! whatta busy day!
DJJTR + Ban Dao + LY wash dishes
=)
as long as there is a smile to give, I will try my best.

the stitches are loosening.

lol

2009-12-04T13:20:00.000+08:00

在逆境中有一个简单，
努力没有口是心非诚实。
然后到这里来这个所谓的爱，
是轻率蔺成可以解决。
一次又一次，你冷酷的心融化，
如此明亮觉得这光芒。
解冻和殴打，受到痛苦，
噢如何一次的愿望，它从来没有白费。

... desmond's translation of the poem below LOL

grass

2009-12-04T05:46:00.002+08:00

In all adversity there is one simplicity,
to strive honest without duplicity.
Then come hither this thing called love,
that headlong rushes into can't solve.
Time and again, thou cold heart melts,
to this radiance so brightly felt.
Thawed and beating, vulnerable to pain,
O how thou wishes for once, it never in vain.

-Lest it Comes, Jonathan

omg

2009-11-29T23:00:00.001+08:00

GAWD!!!! Cameron was real fun!!! But its all becoz of the group that we went with! WooHOo pokep oke poke XD ok sleep

hmm.

2009-11-24T20:28:00.003+08:00

Unsheathed feelings end my grace,
Whispers silence the herald of peace.
Death comes slowly from an unnamed blade,
pierced through the heart of a dying glade.

The final leaf shall descends ablaze,
in wilt, in chaos, in fiery craze.
End begins its forthcoming reign,
to dust, to nothing, to void it wanes.

-It Ends.

someday

2009-11-09T23:37:00.002+08:00

Working halfidae rox! =) you get to spend the other half on self-indulgent things XD hoho not forgetting that I mus 重圣轻凡.

you know.... im lazy to put pics right now =P bleh

if you can't think of anything to say...

seal thy lips, lest it speaks,
of blue cows, and flying pigs,
and finally, when nothing is left to dig,
you end, with a little squeaky squeak.

dasldkh

2009-10-25T14:23:00.002+08:00

ogay, its tiring to work full days maaaaan, so those of you still studying better knopw that its better den working =) last time when I was studying also thoguth working like slack slack but nooooooooooo =.= nm nxt year i go back to studying!!! yay

2009-10-16T23:39:00.000+08:00

What is your True Fear? Your Result: Losing Someone You love affection and the people in your life more than anything. Your greatest fear is that one day someone you care about won't be there anymore. You are a very friendly and inviting person, who draws in a lot of friendships with your kind, considerate, and loyal nature. However, deep down you are slightly insecure and unsure of yourself. You couldn't deal with it if you didn't have one of your loved ones in your life anymore. You don't have too much to worry about though, because with a friend like you, no one will want to lose you either!
Being Alone
Disappointment
Looked down on
Where Your life is Going
Death
Commitment
What is your True Fear? Quiz Created on GoToQuiz

time after time

2009-10-11T21:51:00.002+08:00

hey hey =) the last week has passed!! its like working full time everyday... this sat had my cousin's Jing Yi wedding =) congrats!!! its like a nice family gathering manz! kbox and kayaking on the way!!!! woohoo!!

den today finally went bxb after like... 2 wks of absence =P funz and we plan for 25th dec prog.

haha its better to be packed with things to do i guess... but.

the void awaits, in shadows,
for a moment of falter,
if this continues, little swallow,
it spells the end of my little banter.
-desperatio'

2009-10-06T20:56:00.000+08:00

buzy buzy omg omg, later =P

Learn today so you won't make tomorrow's mistakes

woot

2009-09-30T02:03:00.002+08:00

lawl try this out, its like cheap trills violence XD
http://wooperlala.mybrute.com/

FINALLY my prezzies to the kids are done!
Hope to add a smile to their little faces =)

back on track

2009-09-28T23:15:00.002+08:00

omg I may have aimed too high for my children's day prezzies =.= dunno got enuf time to do or not!!!!!

once its done I'll post a pic of it online XD looks cute manz

low

2009-09-24T19:55:00.003+08:00

=) Been cool during the long wkend XD all i can vividly rmb was carrying Janice all da way from Leonard's blk to causeway pt =.= shaaaaaaaaag.

My Fris and Sats nights are like packed with stuff so always meet the Doods late, and they go pub drink, sometimes i feel its really a bit no point, but must meet up cuz their my gd friends.

Since I became full vegetarian topics with them have sometimes been awkward. Meat and Alcohol equals I don't want, can't, discuss. I swear sometimes I just feel alienated even tho we are close friends. Many thanks though for accommodating with a full vegetarian, lesser friends wouldn't have bothered XD Esp Greg I guess, cuz hez more holy lawl, thanks ah. Hope the rest unds my decision one day, dun need to explain myself cuz

1. They won't listen.
2. I'll make myself into a "overly religious" person, no point.

Recently things as a whole feels downhill... I'm trying to hang on but the greyness is creeping in... again. Yes you can say emo... and I so much want to look on the bright side, haha... its hard.

Moonlight, lead the stony path at night,
My plight, in darkness I can't take flight.

Grey lament, refusing color from my eyes,
Eventual dement, you won't find time for regretful goodbyes.

Its hard to believe

2009-09-20T03:42:00.002+08:00

Dear Reader,

Save these words,

Written by hands,

Of an empty heart.

To fill a void,

They were made,

For sanity's sake,

Eternal's charade.

Now they stand,

Never to cease,

Status quo,

Never remembered.

In all despair,

In all pains,

They serve the torn,

And again, They would wait.

Have pity Reader,

give them hope,

For they were born,

In mire of tears.

Take them from,

The selfish hearts,

Give sanctuary,

In your colored dreams.

So Reader,

If you may so,

Release thee,

Remember me.

-Reader, Meng

meme

2009-09-11T09:20:00.007+08:00

ello! Sch hols student care is jus relac XD, morn 715 open up centre, the first kid Xinsheng comes at 8, den at 9 bring them out to play play at playground till 10, after study tiiime till 12. Cycle hm reaaaaa XDhurhur, lunch time is a mess sometimes =.=

ya so some of us went to send Matthew off on Sun, Xuande nvr go, sugs. BYE Matt!!! but the main point actually was....... VEGETARIAN PRATAI rate it almost as gd as Cassurina Curry... in which I beli beli long nvr go eat le, wa the Kosong is crispy, the egg is full bodied, the cheese mushroom? is vegetarian =P means it doesnt have cow rennet. When Matt come back bring you go eat tgt =P.

my Mom's flower arrangment =) only accented the yellow, cool right?MACRO rox!!!!
Inevitability accounts for most things,

Wisdom allows passage through the inevitable.

o

2009-09-09T23:10:00.002+08:00

sry ah ppl, dis wk everydae work morning so bo time to bu-roge =)

snore

2009-09-05T11:00:00.002+08:00

ya busy wk, doin my "biao wen" for Mo Fan ban, student care, blah blah, korean lesson, had late night drinking without alchohol last nite.... tml gunna send matt off le XD *sniff sniff*

every step begets a beginning.
every footstep heralds an end.

2009-09-01T10:50:00.005+08:00

hey hey hey. The weekend was busybuzibeesi, saturday celebrated ant's birthday

before dat had lunch with my bro and parents, baby kyan is SOOOO CUUUTE =)

See he become 洪杰伦 =) even include the dao face XD

QSNs

2009-08-26T11:09:00.007+08:00

=) LDQSNs!!!!!!!
Lemme describe this photo in detail.
Desmond: Vegetarian food here is good!
Songqi: Yea it is! *Chomp chomp*
Matthew: RARW!!!!!! You steal my prawn!!!! (Vegetarian of course)
Leonard: Everyone so act cute, normal can liao.
Peishi: Noisy la, pose for picture nicely CAN?

And a one time picture of the photographer, using my cam. hurhurhur i may be killed for this.
anyone wan more pics jus msn me.... lazy to zam all here.

This wk buzi wk, Lisa and Angela come to sg from Taiwan, so we must be gracious hosts =) Ydae go vivocity and shop with em... found a jacket I wanted, but forgot to go back to shop and buy! Tonite goin Zouk, gunna be shagged out man. Sry to the kids.... I'm gunna be zombie teacher tml hurhur.

Silence
what a rare commodity it is
nowadays.
Smile
for you never know
who would smile
because of you.
Live
for the sake of
others.
Joy
is when people enjoy
you.

ouch.

2009-08-19T22:45:00.003+08:00

After work today went dwn with my parents to west coast for dinner den went up to 4th uncle's place nearby. Had a nice chat and play with Shi Yang and Shi Jun my baby cousins..... but as we were leaving.... Shi Yang put his hand on the lift door when its closed and somehow it opened and his hand got caught and dragged into the slit between lift and wall.... T.T his fingers skin got torn!!!!! My heart ache when I see the injury... Till now I still think how much pain he must be feeling.... Y must such things happen to 4th uncle's family?!! They jus recover from sickness den now liddat..

That is one reason why I want to bring 4th uncle to qiu dao, so he can understand why and how these things happen and attain some peace of mind from the teachings.... I hope he will agree to come soon.

If reason accompanies all that happens,
there must be much unseen for the reasons.

lagkdg

2009-08-16T23:39:00.001+08:00

Shagged out weekend, and working tml =.= I hope my forearm dun cramp.... DADADA.. DUUUM splat.

what the bleh?

2009-08-14T09:55:00.002+08:00

Heavy clouds are hanging overhead. The sun is shining strong. A steady breeze flows through my window. Whats the PSI today? It looks a little hazy. My legs ache. Too much cycling. My laptop sings out songs. Jason Mraz is currently serenading. I think. I think. Secondhand Serenade is up next. My water bottle's empty. The bed is unmade. My guitar looks away from me. I need to take down my old posters. But then my walls. Would become so empty. Just like my heart. Fragmented. Unchained Thoughts. The cloud is moving on. Its real bright now. Hurts to stare. Have I moved? It looks so fine. Hell. I feel weird though. "But I never said a word I gues I'm gunna miss my chance again."Jason just shot that line at me. Ah. Choo. Sniffles. Late nights. Bad nose. Breezy. The sun is partially cover. Looks real subdued. Today. Alex's farewell. I'm hungry. Cereal? Been having that for three days straight. Maybe I'll have to eat out. Change the pace. "Its not over."Dumdedeededum. Guess who? Jay Chou's up next. Singing about. Rainbows. And Quiet skies. And Clouds running to me. "How can I sleep, without your smile?"看不见你的笑我怎么睡得. ... .I duno how to write "Zao". Hmm. I can sleep. Without anybody's smile. That sounds bad. I need to rely on people more. Fishermans Horizon. Time to end it. =) Smile people. I can't be the only one trying. You can't be the only one crying. And. We can't be the ones sighing. Life's too short. Or so they say.

Lets smile. For one more day.

kboxxxin

2009-08-12T20:18:00.008+08:00

yoyoyo!

elllo this is my karchengs... and "auntiees" by relation =))))) so we went Partyworld on Nat Dae and saaaaaaaaaaaang!!!! feels so good to be able to sing, I'll say its a gift =D

and herez a noisy vid =P

when I see you smile :)

2009-08-08T22:32:00.003+08:00

hey hey, got into FZD concept design liao, time to chioong!!!!

went jian zhong's house to dao xi today, omg i fumbled my li jie alot =.= lao mu ci bei gimme a big lesson to learn haha...

den went for farewell bbq for shimin, actually dunno her well but just say BYEEEEEEE =) she goin finland sia, sounds like a cool place maaaanz. reminds me of my resolution to travel the world in my whole life =)

shudder, ripple, through the mirror I go,
silence, reflect, behold and lo,
timeless, formless, are the seams that unhold,
transience, sublime, I must to travel the folds.
- journey, Meng

mengmeng

2009-08-06T10:42:00.002+08:00

for a few days I was juggling in my mind... Concept design? or Games design?
I love to dream of stuff, and discover new stuff, so concept design sounds right for me, but my foundation in 2D cannot make it.
I like to play games, and want to be able to create a game with my own hands, but I wont get to discover as many new things and the course is friggin EX.....

snore, 人生烦恼消不完, 解决十个百个来.
but I've decided to chiong.... CONCEPT DESIGN!!! =) hurray, one less decision to make =)

weekdays r so slow.... maybe cuz you have to put on a stern face for the children =.= need some excitement maaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaan, god why do I have such a restless mood...

snif

2009-08-04T19:02:00.000+08:00

sniff sniff..... sniffles
my nose is really snuffed.

signs

2009-07-30T22:50:00.004+08:00

sometimes, its better to not know what you're doing.

that way, you create a little laughter and joy for those who see your work. (Do Not Frolic... LOL)

Hey! its ok to be a clown
as long as people smile,
leaving their day with one less frown,
I would gladly go the mile.

and sometimes

2009-07-26T23:47:00.000+08:00

Woke up with a nose that is half-stuffed, half-running. That's my nose for ya, thks to the crooked inner bone... but I don't wanna go for surgery, later become like michael jackson=.= nooooooo

Had a Tiff with dad. I decided not to ever drive when he is around, I can't control myself when his comments come out, its just demeaning even though he doesn't realise it.

And I wish, I could learn to put a smile on your face, and know you better,
but alas, I do not know how, can someone teach me? I skipped my life's lessons module too much.

fishing man

2009-07-24T09:07:00.008+08:00

This is a simple story of a sage. As you know, people get bored, and one day, this sage with all his knowledge and cultivation, became ever so restless.

So he decided to take a walk.

And he chanced upon a man at a stream.

A fisherman of advanced age sitting on a fairly flat stone, swaying his fishing rod ever so slightly, waiting...
In an instant, the fishing line pulled taut! The fisherman, clearly experienced, fought effortlessly and finally reeled in the catch. "My god the fish was big!" thought the Sage, it was indeed almost 3 feet long and putting up a valiant struggle while the fisherman struggled to free his hook from its mouth.
After some effort, the fisherman freed his hook and rearing up, he threw the fish back into the stream! Recomposing himself, he casted his rod and sat down waiting again. The Sage, puzzled at the fisherman's behaviour, was curious to understand this fisherman who had thrown such a big catch, surely able to sell for much, away.
10 minutes pass and the line snagged again. Going through his motions, the fisherman landed a fish still fairly large, about 2 feet long. The fish thrashed about in defiance while the fisherman once again extracted the fishing hook. After doing so, and once again, he threw the fish back from where it came!
Now the Sage was clearly dumbfounded and badly wanted to ask the fisherman why was he doing this, but he stayed put and continued to watch as the fisherman sat down once again with his line casted. In a few minutes the fisherman pulled out a catch not more than 1 feet in length. The Sage saw him smile for the first time as he unhooked the fish and delivered it into his catch basket.

Urged on by the questions in his head, the Sage approached the fisherman while he was packing up to go and asked "I've been watching you fish and I don't understand why you threw such a big fish away for the small one in your basket!" Sheepishly, the fisherman smiled "Haha, only the fish in the basket fits onto the one plate I have at home." Saying which he strolled slowly down the path towards his home.

Simply in the scene, the Sage learned how a simple man cloud let go of his greed and take only what he needs.

How often do we desire for more more more, not realising, all we need are the simple things in life.

badminton

2009-07-21T09:29:00.001+08:00

man, after sunday night's badminton.... i feel my noobness level =.=

i strive to up level through playing with 高手s and learning from them =)))))))

amazing

2009-07-18T21:15:00.003+08:00

hurhurhur!!!
time for a short post.

thurs fri worked at student care, waaa! taking care of kids is more tiring than I thought... at least I get some dough and exercise cuz i cycle to work XD

you know.... i drink sweettalk 泡泡茶 in sg and I think "omg... I need the taiwan 泡泡茶man!!!" sg one now cnmi T.T

small and fragile, yet, the intricacies of every organism speaks for itself, realize... that we never invented, we have only innovated.

dmd

2009-07-14T22:10:00.004+08:00

heyhey! =)

the ONLY picture I have for my DMD gathering =.= cam went out of batt forgot to charge!!!
so last sat went for DMD gathering, been a looooong time since i've seen anyone of em man! a bit awkward cuz i don't know much animation and IM ppl but after awhile warmed up =) i totally got owned at street fighter on PS3 =.=

Sun was DJJTR.... seriously zombie, I need to sleep early for a few days to regain energy, the late sleeping lifestyle makes me lethargic....

little critter little wabbit,
you're so cute but my foot you bit,
little wabbit little critter,
im vegetarian... so plz dont quiver!!!

buzi

2009-07-14T11:17:00.001+08:00

erm hrm.... buzi these few days haha so er, blog later XD

title?

2009-07-09T00:56:00.002+08:00

I want sweet dreams,
Its rare it seems,
My subconscious reams,
Has little of honeyed beams.

Maybe some sugar drops,
A sprinkle of hops,
Creamy smiles on top,
Chocolate swirls and lops.

Add many colourful gummies,
O! those wonderous yummies,
Sometimes in the shape of bunnies,
All into my tummy.

Give me sweet dreams,
Many many lovely dreams,
I'll share some with you,
If I could have the little nice dreams!

-sweet dreams are made of these, meng

cool morning

2009-07-07T08:26:00.012+08:00

and i wonder.....

the simple things, till you're old, that brings a smile to your face.

parto 3

this river water was so clean we could drink it directly!!!!
and we took a COLD swim in it also haha... (i think it was illegal though)

hurhur first night we went cycling for FOOD, there was actually a vegetarian stall in the night hawker centre XD woo!

keith.... did this
he was like.... woo... wooo... WOOO! den he hit the side mirror and prrraack!
he hit liao den run lol, bugger. sad car...

next day we went water rafting, 10 ppl on a boat... so it was QUITE slow. these are all our feet =P

and our boat crew!!! haha had fun getting stuck on rocks and falling into the water =P I zai, never fall hoho.

prawning at night, using only small net and hands, the prawns so hard to grab out of the net =.= i feel very 内疚... all those sad prawns T.T but we released the crabs we caught

=)
and so we end parto 3 on a note.

when you cross the bridge, you only understand the road above,
look under, and discover the beauty below

parto2.5

2009-07-03T06:59:00.006+08:00

parto 2.5

the gang of not so lethal brothers

we went to a historical museum, learning that the natives started using iron tools quite early in the human timeline

as you can see greg fits in early in that timeline XD

this rock formation at danshui looks like 2 hearts stuck together no? wonder if its man-made

wakao! i accidentally used black and white for this picture =.= we are eating QQ stuff at jiufen...
seak: awwww maiii gawwwd.... sleepy
keith: awwww maiii gawwwd.... emo
ant and alex: awww maiii gawwwd.... plz take the picture again
greg:.... *ding**wink*.... ghey
meng: wakao, my smile sugs...

DONG GAN CHAO REN!!!!!! buy 3 get 1 free figurines

oki, hungry le, time for breakfast... shld i post the pictures on facebook? but i frigging lazy =.=

2009-07-01T22:28:00.006+08:00

parto 2
dadada duuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuum!!

ahhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!
ya ok... so we went to a few places in taipei to shop,
mainly simenting, shiling street, jiu fen, dan shui, and wu fen pu...
shopping = exercise = leg... SUAN

we went to a toilet themed cafe, lol food served in toilet bowls and squat holes.... you be the judge

due to 太多 msn chat windows, and the utter concentration needed to type 华文 on computer..... i stop her first LOL

taiiiiiiiiwaaaaaan

2009-06-30T11:30:00.008+08:00

ello =)
back from taiwan!!!!!! god its real fun and a real beautiful experience !.!

parto 1
here we are all energetic and rdy to chiong taiwan for 10 days =)

on day one...
we discovered that paopao cha in taiwan... comes in one ##!&@ sized cup

vegetarians get bored when sitting in a duck shreds smelly tofu stall

and...
we wont be doing swimming at our estate anytime soon

thanks to Anthony aka Gao Shao Ye we all get to stay in a nice condo in taipei =)

ok part one ends.... cuz im just lazy =) its great to be back though wahahaha

you can choose to see the clouds all white and fluffy from above,
or you may see it heavy and threatening from below.
I choose, to see from above, but always remember how it was from below.

.

2009-06-19T00:37:00.002+08:00

the long story short for now =)

went to C camp last sat to mon was real fun and learned alot,
our grp had 2 and a half designers and very creative ppl so we won the design contest... Yi ru fang zhang
I say 2 and half cuz i so long no design, become rusty liao =P

wed went to help be dai dong yuan at A camp
as usual to no surprise they all soooooooooo active haha,
i stuck to an indian kid cuz nid to translate chi to english...
now i know how hard it is to be interpreter =.=

goin to TAIWAN till 29 jun, for anyone who reads =p ciao

poen

2009-06-10T23:47:00.002+08:00

Success is but a definable thing,
but Oh it seems to grow the greatest wings.

Some call it a million
in gems and gold,
Some define it with
the empire he holds.

Sone just seek a simple life,
A son,
A daughter,
A loving wife.

I sat and thought,
about the life I've got,
What makes me happy?
What defines my story?

A little bit,
from everyone I meet,
the wider the smile,
it gets lighter, every mile.

Let it come with truth,
Let it come from heart,
My success, and hopes,
is just,
your little smile.

- I want to make you smile, Jonathan

one

2009-06-07T22:33:00.009+08:00

one word to describe the last 2 days... SHAAAAAAAAAAAG

went to TG liao yuan sew hats for the du jing zhuang yuan sai, den stayed for da zhong ban.

my camera... has the knack of paiing hands haha
check it out

1...

2...

3...
bleh

some other blah pics

small weiquan and moi

jia ming... emo =P

TG's grass became purple thanks to food dye being sprayed from the sky,
dont worry, its vegetarian =)

then today go early to help in the mock dujing test... the BYs all so rowdy zz!
after went to songci, er woops songqi's hse to rest before going ming yuan's and aiyun's hse to celebrate both tang zhu's fotang anniversary. on the way see so many downed trees.... omg today heaven zap zap very zhun!
den went home and ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh had a nice loooooong bathe, rejuvenation! head down to TG again to celebrate 15 of the lunar mth =) glad i had recharged and happy to mix arnd with everyone. cheers!

Rather than living a 100 years,
not knowing from whence you came,
to where thee goes.

One would do better live for a single day,
but know and understand it all.

wow?

2009-06-03T00:10:00.003+08:00

She comes from the wind,
so fleeting,
so free,
and she resides in its lee.

To feel her touch,
is asking for much,
a dream I suppose,
a dream as such.

To hear her voice,
the tinkles and flutters,
you must seal your mind,
its grumbles and mutters.

To whiff her scent,
the price of countless cents,
is to forget your woes,
and all that its meant.

To comprehend,
her beauty's passion,
you have to venture,
into unknown bastions.

She's born from the wind,
still seeking,
still free,
onwards I go,
till her love finds thee.

- From the Wind, Jonathan

wooo

2009-06-01T11:28:00.003+08:00

woooo! the M'sia trip was fun =) xie xie DCS cb, DZ and TZ for taking care of us during the trip =)

ok a few things to note before my short term memory wipes out.

-530 am sat set off (zombie zombie sleepy =.=)
-Breakfast at a full vege coffee shop (wish sg had more of those)
-Durian farm (woooo free flow!!! eat till very heaty)
-Bus singing, Games (Xiuci Xiuqi take the lead, but alot of us meeting zhou gong, play chuiniu, lol omg we are pro chui niu ppl)
-Reach TiTi Ecofarm (Feel the traditional kampungness)
-Learn how to make Green papaya salad and Wholemeal bread (Jialat, actually papaya forget how to make liao =.=)
-Dinner (haha the greeness is overwhelming, the doods at my table cannot stand the lei cha, small weiquan look like he gunna puke and jiesheng huo shang jia you... green diarohhea =.=)
-Firefly watching (Had the chance for one crawling on my hands, green glow lo, thought orange)
-Lighted guang ming lantern (First time for me, and the ban yuans make farny wishes haha=P secret)
-Hit the sack at 11 plus (think i kicked songqi a few times =P)
-Wakey and go for a herb tour (Lemme see... Pagoda Grass, Snake Grass, Aloe Vera, Rat's Tail plant, FuRong-Something of Sharon Flower, omg got others all forget le.)
-appetizer (Pickled Aloe wrapped in a hibiscus, wrappe in a furong flower petal, wrapped in a dunnowhat leaf...)
-breakfast (er. some green milo thingy, rice in the morn haha rox)
-listen to the owner's educating speech about health stuff, but the kids all think its a sort of lullaby. i feel like an old uncle who actually listens =.=)
-go for a fruit tour ( wooo the fruits taste real good compared to none organic ones, priced real good too =.=)
-had a ride on a rope bridge, flying fox thingy, and... TIGHT ROPE, wa kao i shake like hell lol)
-lunch and packing up (wow the lunch was actually delicious! guess they know we cnmi with too much greeness)
-the long ride home (huiyi by then has picked up on a "poke my side" war with me and desmond, by then i already had bruises on my sides thks to weiquan... so ouch. I feel like big bro to like 6-7 kids le, or more like a punching bag =X)
-dinner (was non organic and we are loving it lol, tastes great, health benefits not so great.)
-marseilling (drop off and bb...=) was fun man!)

photos will kao all those that had cams... argh shld have brought mine
wooo ok time to lac =) signin off

to describe happiness, is to show you how.

wow wee

2009-05-25T23:38:00.002+08:00

wootz basketballz with seak greg keith ant and lex, in my life i play less then 20 times of bball =P but was fun manz!!!

finally da video is gunna finish leeeee wooooo, time to enjoy life for awhile but running out of MONEY.... enjoy the penniless life T.T

Remember
If you're angry,
you're most probably wrong,
be consoled, you're never totally wrong.

If you smile,
you can't go wrong,
do it, even when they're clearly in the wrong.

2009-05-17T22:30:00.003+08:00

A father, his 7 year old son and their donkey set off to the market one day.
The father asked his son to ride the donkey, while he pulled them along.

A passerby exclaimed "How unfilial a son!"
In response, the son got off and the father got on the donkey while the son pulled.

After a short distance, another passerby commented "How cruel this father is, making his son do all the hardwork."
Again, they reacted and the son got on the donkey with the father and rode on.

Passing-by a farm, the farmer said in disapproval "How cruel this father and son, to treat their donkey so harshly!"
So the father and son got off the donkey and walked on.

About to reach the market, a lady full of the day's marketing laughed "How stupid of these two! If I had a donkey I would surely ride it!"

Listen to your inner heart,
never doubt yourself,
or your heart will sway,
as did father and son on their way.

boo?

2009-05-14T12:19:00.003+08:00

Its funny how one image can spur me so...

In Dark, In Silence, In velvet Mist,
Does truth truly lie? Or is nothing we seek?
In Light, In Revel, In unveiling Mist,
We see, we feel, to us so real.
In Grey, In Murmurs, In endless Mist,
To realize that all and none are one.

-Velvet Mist, Meng

and so it came to pass

2009-05-12T00:11:00.000+08:00

if a picture paints a thousand words, then why did we invent words?

2009-05-07T19:00:00.002+08:00

Hlllllp the anti social streak is coming baack again....
How can ppl stand working at home?!?!
No one to talk to, no fresh air....
Not that I'm one to talk much,
but I love people, seek people, hate people, dislike people.

Scientists say that if all animals besides humans died, we would die of loneliness.
Frigging right they are. They havent even all died out and I'm already feeling alone =P

Luckily I have Tian Dao activities at night, when I'm there the energy just picks up... I hope to find more ppl to try this feeling, but everyone see vegetarian = omg i join his religion confirm cannot eat meat... diao
itsa matter of choice doods =.=

To whence, to where, to whom doth thou findst
Eternal, Boundless, Nameless thou seekst

dodidodido

2009-05-05T22:23:00.006+08:00

I've learnt 2 things today:

That Pri 6 Science papers are inspirational

And I nid to get a better expression while on a phone

Working at home is so boooooooring, at least I dont have to stink in a No.4 Uniform tho. SO I went to starbucks to chill and rmb my auntie ask me to jio my cousin nxt time i go starbucks =P toopid yun

she gunna be a ming xin one day so dun wan ppl to pai her now

me luv MACRO, wooooo MACRO woooooo $2.60 for the packet of chips... woooo

I was sure I could come up with something poetic today.

Dang.

The head is empty, knock knock.

to find finally in eternality

2009-05-04T17:20:00.003+08:00

is like looking for a non existant needle in a haystack.
the trouble, is that you think there is a needle there.

Ahhh weekend is over!!! now have to do the video for camp again... zzz
Should I use Final Cut Pro, in which I totally forgot how to use, but seems more customizable.
Or Adobe Premiere, that I have been working on, but has limited effects at my disposal..... zzz... the dilemma.

Time flows in an eternal bind,
to live, to die, is all in the mind.

shucks

2009-04-30T23:01:00.002+08:00

its gunna be a busy wkend.... mendosai!!!!! (troublesome!!!!!)
so much so I cant go out with my usual buddies X.X
all cannot make it to go out today, o well, some things take priority

why so shy?
when I'm not.
why am I shy?
when you're not.
why must shy?
when others are not.
why be shy?
when you can be not.

<---left right--->

2009-04-29T21:31:00.002+08:00

taking my SATs on sat mornin... but you know i discover I'm suddenly lost.
I want to try so many things,
but I do not know which one I want to actually earn my bread and butter...

I had a dream this afternoon while dozing,
it was real interesting and I want to write it here,
but damn,
why do dreams have the knack of slipping from your mind?
if I ever remembered all my dreams,
I swear I would be an rocking author by now.
o well,
let the sublime inspirations do their job,
that is,
to make sleep more interesting. =)

emptyness.hope

2009-04-28T05:19:00.002+08:00

Why SAF kills the environment.
1 VIP visit
= 2 Combi Bus (1 From CHangi all the way to Lim Chu Kang)
1 GP car (You wonder, its nvr any use)
1 Minibus ( To carry their precious food, silver platters inclusive)
10 private cars (all the way to Lim Chu Kang, to see a remote control plane)
1 hour of idle engines (waiting for the bosses to finish diplomatic chattering)

Yesterday,
emptyness came to my door.
It was thirsty for hope.
I fed it some,
sent it away,
not much left now,
my heart starts to sway.
Will I survive?
Am I living numbered days?
In search for more hope,
to feed this ravenous void.
I cradle whats left,
pray emptyness don't come,
and take it away.

rain rain come again

2009-04-27T01:26:00.002+08:00

Ahhhhhhhhh coooooooooling, won't the rain come again to wet and cool down this parched earth ^.^

Todae bu xi ban is funz as usual, still learning how to teach children... I feel I'm too soft le, cannot get stern... when I tried to be serious I burst out laughing!!! =.= diaoz

oki short and sweet, nite.

Out in the pouring rain,
no one can hear you cry,
no one can see you dance,
no one can say you're wrong,
its the best time to be honest,
out in the pouring rain.

ni hao

2009-04-25T10:43:00.001+08:00

eh hehe, randomly type stuff =P
gunna be able to drive car soon le... *drools*

cherish and relish

2008-07-04T13:02:00.002+08:00

Recently, i've been bumping into quite the many old friends, everytime, I would start to smile and feel good just to have a short talk. In the crowded mrt station, in that dingy old bookstore you just decide to check out, on the five-foot way where you discover that 2 people standing still would hinder many a passerbys. We would ask the simple ordinary questions and usually have to get on after a short while.

Then, as we part I would remember all thoe times we shared together, projects, soccer, sailing, and the silly stuff we luagh about. Its warming, just thinking of it. At least I kind of remind myself I dont have such a short term memory as I would have expected.

Do you ever cherish those times? I mean, I find that its been great, to just having known my friends, however short or simple the time we had. I hope everything that eventually fade, would be colored back someday, would give me the chance to reminisce.

Tekong is actually a beautiful place

2008-05-10T15:08:00.002+08:00

If it were not for the marching, shouting, patriots that are mostly botak. Yea, tekong would be a peaceful place.

But for the most part, its a grinding gritty testosterone fill camp whr you learn to be a man. With a rifle. With some buddies. With yourself.

And so i embark of my 7 weeks course in Tekong. But all the shit I do inside is classified =X dunno to what extent though =.= I've made good buddies in there even though its only 3 weeks so far.

Jeffery, same b'dae, potato "ang moh pai", possibly seperate at birth... lol, the model boyfriend, so loving to his gf

Sriram, or Ram, or Ramly Burger, Da squeeze squeeze guy, always the optimist and a great talk cock buddy lol, MY MAN bruther

TT Lee, so cuuuute, no gayism involved, but when he smiles its just like the msn emoticon LOL, and hez so devoted, always on the phone with his other half and will most probably collapse if tio confined

Darren, Chicken Little lookalike, soccer dude and good to talk cock also haha, thats like how we past time in tekong =.=

Kok Wei, total mental prob lol, like the punching bag of the bunk, usually because hez weird and has a flathead (flatter on one side den the other, seriously.

Silas, teddybear! the gentle giant alwayus happy till he heard that he tio guard duty standby.

omg too much to type, only got one day out here, ok I've become one of the massagers on the bunk giving free massage service so if anyone needs a massage... Im trained in tekong haha =P

next time doods

its a resolute day, in an absolute way

2007-12-31T13:28:00.000+08:00

Happwy nuew yeaar fwens!! V(^-^)V
( )

Rustic little Rusty me

2007-12-06T08:56:00.000+08:00

Above the hospital, the clouds gather hither,
Grey and awaiting, the light slowly withers.
Then down it came, the torrents of rain,
that's how I came, from womb in pain.

Years have passed, in words I learn,
to match them cards, in pairs unturned.
I matched a name, to the skies that falled,
a simple "rain", thats what its called.

Time feeds me, I grow to feel,
a little crush, for the girl who likes teal.
I stare at the strokes, that fall from above,
and learned and felt, a thing called love.

Sketching in class, a low rumble reckons,
more years have passed, and still the rain beckons.
"Why do you stare?", she curiously questions,
I reply unknowing, "Its the calling of bastions".

Out on the roads, a driver's profession,
a darn boring job, an honest confession.
Soaked in the rain, my ride creeps slowly,
and now I question, "what disturbs me really?"

The future starts, the present ends,
the past has ended, oh when is the end?
When the rain has stopped, I hope all things mend,
when the journey finals, at Rainbow's End.

-After Rain, meng

What you'll find, at Rainbow's End

2007-12-02T19:30:00.000+08:00

It's already around 5 mths in da army and I find the monotonous life getting to me.

And moi poly doods coming out of bmt soon, hope to meet up soon =) It's been a long time manz.

The cool days are approaching, I can smell it, taste it, but mostly its just feeling that my blanket is just not enough to keep moi warm at night =P how I wish I could just drive myself to where I want to go, when to rain visits, when memories return.

green, blue, and a sort of clue

2007-10-21T10:33:00.000+08:00

and today I settle down for a cup of tea, a book to read, the sky to wonder at, and a wish that you were here in my simple life.

azure blue, I remember you,
the grey you left, in my sky of blues.
faded yellow, I reminisce you,
the memories, in you it mellows.
sepia brown, I photographed you,
the captured moods, of my little town.
hazy green, I loved you,
the time eternal, but never seen.

-I, You

Jonathan

scratch your worries away

2007-09-10T17:42:00.000+08:00

Before entering the service of our almighty nation, I was a dood with a disease that made moi skin grow too fast and caused my scalp to itch like mad... and I thought that was bad.

Until, I experience the 3 step enlightenment, in a 3 step process, giving you an all body experience that made me realise that, it really isn't so bad to have itchy scalp you know... rather than having itchs all over the damn body!!!

so I decide to compose this song, for the army, in the army, from the army. =)

They say that in the army, the repellant very strong,
you rub it on your body, they give you bloody rash.

They say that in the army, the bed so very soft,
you lie on yellow bedsheets, and bed bugs do the rest.

They say that in the army, the uniforms are the best,
you wear for more den 1 day, you scratch until your ass.

They say that in the army, the blankets are so fluffy!
you let it cover your body, and bed bugs do the rest!

-They say that itch comes from the army*

*In your perspective you might actually understand that it is actually ME who is itching like hell while currently writing this.

if the sky turned orange

2007-08-25T17:49:00.000+08:00

and if the clouds stayed blue,

would thoughts disappear without a clue?

i hope to change my life with hues,

but circumstances are like unending queues,

no one needs to give me cues,
i'll smile away the empty blues.

- emptiness without a clue, by someone(most likely myself, but i'll leave room for doubt)

a little bit of nothing in my life

2007-08-11T17:25:00.001+08:00

clutch in, engage first gear, half-clutch, cross da arrow, second gear and turn full lock, back to half-full turn and release clutch gradual, straighten and... tada =)
dats how you move a rover out of a sharp left turn blah blah... snore.

everyday, driving on the road like any other day, jokes, laughs, tio kan, fugged up buggers (lowlifes), and a overall feelin of dumbness... like i'm wasting moi time

it rained, as i was doing parking practice, and i heard nothing.
gone.
i wished there was at least something.

everyones working, in camp, life is changing bladdy fast, one day a week i get to go out and chiong lawl, movies and the standard entertainments...
i start taking note of stuff i dun usually take note, like birthdays, time, and i remember that i love the clouds...

nature has it way of getting to you, even in camps. there's this minor(bird), that is totally bald (making it look like a vulture. minus the size) that always comes during lunch and tea breaks. haha love da the simple joy of feedin da bugger curry puff pastries.

Haru went for op to put nails in her gum (ouch). Wished her gd luck =P for once i remembered something like this lawl. Wonder how she is now? sucks the have nails stuck in your gum (ouch. again). No reply yet, lol i can imagine she call and start to mumble (garg!! bur eurts men... T-T)

mini me, mini we, mini mini cooper wee =)

2007-07-27T00:04:00.000+08:00

omg omg omg omg omg omg omg. i nid one of these!!! they rock yur bladdy world man.

you'll understand when you sit in one =)

bad job well done

2007-07-25T22:14:00.000+08:00

one thing you MUST learn about painting a vehicle is; paint the wheels.

why?

you can lie on one of those rolling thingys and roll under the rover, 3 tonner etc. and you can jolly well have a nice shut-eye while yur at it =)

and a little tip.

of all the things you'll find in this world, much of it is shit.

and of all the shit you find in this world, much of it is black.

and i might or might not be suggesting that it can walk, talk, rock and talk too much bladdy cock, but then I might as well put it in yur imagination as to how epidemically a black shit can ruin your day if you keep in constant proximity of it.

i repeat, its an IT, nothing pertaining to any intelligence you may find in this world =)

Ten men walked up a hill,
one got shot, one lost his will,
one fell back, one paid his dues.

Five men walked down the hill,
you wonder how it counts,
to have one buried under mounts.

Five men entered a town,
one got hit by a little lead,
another went a little mad.

Two men left a town,
you wonder how it feels,
to lose one under wheels.

Two men had a walk,
with hope they took their steps,
with time the less they wept.

Two men stopped in their walk,
their names the world forgets,
buddies each'll never forget.

- Gone but its so Wrong

save the meng campaign

2007-07-19T00:54:00.000+08:00

damn, fine me for jaywalking, criticize me for my blatant speech, whack me cuz i bio yur char bo, but never... NEVER get me a job that includes these:

1. 8-5, rot in a world of routine

2. saikang... day after day after (omg wtf how many days more?!) day

3. problematic higher-ups, one divorced (perma pms), one single (not bad, but shout a lot), one got lj face (new and as the description suggests, i dun need to explain)... no higher-ups with happy family and welfare.

I begin to wonder, whr has the world gone to, kbox, mahjong sessions, supper, or jus a plain ol cup of hot choc. pfft. Just strengthens my resolve to do wildlife work when i get outa this shithole <--- (pertaining to a certain higher up that has a face similar to the above abjective)

The clouds, The Sea, and The sky,
I'm Born and Free and made to Fly.
- Freedom, Meng

when you noe jian an too much

2007-07-15T11:40:00.001+08:00

Create your own Friend Test here

life is sad,
hlp i know jian an too much

=) if yur bored shit and you know you clap yur hands

2007-07-12T22:38:00.000+08:00

if

only

time

would

pass

a

little

damn

faster

bear, pear, hare, bare

2007-07-06T18:15:00.000+08:00

Training to be OOTs, Saikang for our land,
Once in our life, 2 years waste our time,
Have you ever wondered, why so much saikang?
Because we love our land, and we want it to be clean to be cleannnnnn YA!

-Why Must OOTs Serve

Original.

Training to be soldiers, Fight for our land,
Once in our life, 2 Years of our time,
Have you ever wondered, why must we serve?
Because we love our land, and we want it to be free to be freeeeeeeee YA!

-Why Must We Serve

Finally, after 3 years and... some months, I got da piece of paper, to wipe my sweat with, to wipe my ass with and to wave in front of da HR managers when I wanna get a job.

The graduation was a lil... fugged, I mean, I would rather be wearing my Smart 04 and boots weifong de climb up stage and WOO HOO, but nuuuuu a baldie with small head and big ugly harry potter lookin gown... sad

OOTs can do things Normal Recruits can't. Suckers =P

1. You can stay in an air conditioned room. Provided you've done yur saikang and COS is cool and friendly (Pegasus ftw)

2. You can do yur own training regime, for me its the arms that get pumped woooo (rarx) but my legs still nua nua cuz i flat-footed... sad

3. You can talk cock with yur sergeants about FM, Dota, *Bleep*, *Bleep*, and about him adopting a kitten and deciding to adpot one too =)))))))))) yay

and on book out day (today) we were actually able to ask the Attend Bs (Chao Geng and act sick ppl) and Status Doods to do our saikang for us!! OH YEA whos the fugface now? =P but I also hlp moi platoon doods la, only some other platoons got some fugfaces.

Then there's Company S (Scorpion). Sounds fierce right? They are actually the Band of Sisters =P come in 2 weeks, nua a bit, go out, nid OOTs to help them carry bags up the bus... smlj. btw... their face... quite jiao... lawl

We didn't have much to say,
but we had a little talk.
How did it turn out this way?
I wished we had a little walk.

Something changed through time,
I couldn't catch the fault.
If only I could mime,
then we could have a little waltz.

Emptied from a cup,
emptied from my heart.
I hope that things look up,
its nice to play a little harp.

A wish that you'll be fine,
A wish that I'll know that,
A wish that it'll be mine,
A wish to have a little *bleep*(censored XD)

- A little, Meng

how to save a life

2007-06-29T15:55:00.000+08:00

and so it came to pass, that my tour to an island for 14 days has come to an end, or more like my 3 day tour of singapore has started. either way.

nort enuf time. not enuf, for my sec sch friends, for my poly friends, to go pray, to meet with you, the dood reading this, for family, for myself.... shag

but it try my best =)

and i fugging nid a pet. after i get my 8 to 5 job lol.
hope Mr Leo gets me into design sector.
Pes C rea =P cuz flat-footed.

and I found someone with the same bday as me in camp. he likes nature too lol. its like.. wtf?. and hez flat-footed too. lol.

den theres dis dood who looks like a pri school kid and a teddy bear. lol damn fun to disturb. hez got hyper-ventilation. its a prob whr yur lungs fuck up and absorb too much oxygen that you will burn in it if you breathe too bladdy much.

for now, im a saikang warrior, for now, i relac =)

my buddy is an indian. and hez 17, and... he looks like 21 lol.

more next time on "smlj i dont know wtf i wanna say" ep2

a tinge of what is called, the end

2007-06-12T00:16:00.000+08:00

so er you wont need to read this blog 2 weeks after this post. =) into the depths of NS i shall enter and with it shall come forth chaos to wreak destruction upon those who have sinned and.... er.... smlj

LOL

anyway. BYE.

quote of the day:

as far as i know,

i dont know.

-My Jiao Words, Jae Lay Jian Anne

and I leave you with this nice song, however gay the singer sounds like, its nice =)

NS eh......... lol

2007-06-06T21:21:00.000+08:00

goin in rea.... nxt week rea...

If I seem a little sad, its actually really not so bad,
everyone would have had, a time when you're a little mad.

If I seem a little bored, sometimes you'll feel quite floored,
maybe I need to be gored, watching horror movies that are moored.

If I seem a little lame, maybe you should sing madame,
get rid of the dying flame, so that I can play my game.

If you feel a little dumb, after reading all this lumps,
of little words and humps, don't worry, you're not that dumb.

If and When you Like it Lame, Meng

2007-05-24T17:59:00.001+08:00

the water stills, reflecting reality unto the face of night
the ripple fills, disillusions rant on about a distant light
the splashes spills, a pond loses its desperate fight
the drops of hills, existance sublimes into unreaching heights.

- all about silence, meng

understand what needs to be understood

2007-05-20T01:40:00.000+08:00

the theory of the reason pertaining to the need mainly recognizing that it is to ask why there is a question to something that is a little undeniably fanthomable but however unknowingly heard of by the conscious that command the known dimension leaving only doubt in the later that would be brought forward to the now in due time which is quite actually undescribable for the definition of whatever you are reading is basically something which relates to a void of meaning better know as a simile which many would confuse with the verb to describe a state of.......................... nothing

if life were as easy as pictures

2007-05-18T15:59:00.000+08:00

Read my VisualDNA™ Get your own VisualDNA™

I know that its so Cliché

2007-05-12T13:28:00.000+08:00

what part of life do you want not to be a routine, a bore, a cliché?

=þ

maybe when you open yur eyes to conciousness, you discover it is the first cliché that you have done for the day.

and

I don't, no I don't, love you, like I did yesterday.

because

you're different, and I'm different, so how can the existence between stay the same?

frankly

forever is bullshit, sadness is emo-shit, loneliness is sad shit, and happiness is good shit

obviously

im pretty bored, so as to

waste some time

i chose to

waste some lines

and then you'll jus shut the window cuz you got pissed.

and

in the process, getting pissed... is jus dumb shit

seagulls, and my head

2007-05-06T23:23:00.000+08:00

bzzzzzt... bzzzzt. omigaawd i have a ball head now! coupled with some erratic lines and weird design and... something that looks like a bird on the back of my head. XDXDXDXDXDXD

however, tonight, i did something, that made it all worthwhile.

I shocked da auntie working at fairprice =) I was like "omg, itchy..." and took off my cap when i heard "WA nice hairstyle!" and i tio shocked =.= the auntie behind me was commenting on my cool lines XD.

if not for my damn disease that makes my skin grow too fuggin fast, it would jus be pelfecto.

damn, the cat (chaotabin) disappeared. wth, its like *bwing* and gone... guess it was jus a hope i held on that she would stay arnd for some time. i noe that is jus cliche but i think i needed her. it was jus so comforting to have that small black warm body lying nxt to me, while i slowly drifted off. as i have known but always hated, parting is inevitable, soon or later. it jus sucks.

I wonder if love had made me blind,
for now I see the world in coloured lines.
-meng, After the Rain

a redemption of sorts

2007-05-01T13:05:00.000+08:00

lately, i've been more prone to lashing out at ppl, in defense of a non-existent ego that resides in my innermost dumbness, for that i am sorry.

may the clouds rain over me and let the wind hold my skin, for i believe there is no god to change what i've become. i rather more trust in the potted plant sittin in front of me.

know that I don't hate you

2007-04-22T02:06:00.000+08:00

yo doods, back from phuket, back from the sun, back to home.

and during our travels there was laming, there was fun, there was sunburn, there were dumbs. "let the pictures do the talking will ya"... "okok... sheesh"

try as I might, I couldn't eat the island. or rather my camera man, seaky, could not find the angle...

until it got too big -.- and...

\

this third pic of ma dood gang just sums up how greatly fascinating the puny island was to us... especially on a bladdy long 1.5hr trip to phi phi island.

and before we reached touchdown, some gay pics were taken.. er actually only one.

well at phi phi, somehow, not going into detalis, but rather it was an accident...
i posed like er... this

but after all is said and done, nothing, i repeat, NOTHING beats this.

lawl
.end.

know that I'll always love you

colorgenics

2007-04-12T23:47:00.000+08:00

hmm, interesting, wuuuu, ahhhh.....

is this me?

You are feeling exhausted, worn out, drained. You feel that far too much is being asked of you but you still want to overcome these difficulties and establish yourself despite the effect such an effort seems to have on you. You are a proud person, assertive most of the time, but at this particular moment you are acting as if you have become resigned to the situation. What you need is some tender loving care - a gentle pat on the head (or maybe a 'kick-up-the backside') and then you'll be raring to go.

You are willing to try anything once. You 'need to be needed' and what is perhaps more important you 'need to need.' You can only feel close to a person or persons when you feel you can trust them, but this trust needs to be proven to you.

It is hard for you to accept that your needs and desires are misunderstood by almost everyone within your sphere of influence and there is no one to rely on. Your pent-up emotions and inherent egocentricity make you quick to take offence, but as matters stand you realise that you'll have to make the best of things as they are.

It is said that we are all influenced by our environment and indeed you are no exception. It would seem at this time that even though you may be surrounded by people, you are experiencing an inner loneliness. Fortunately you are sufficiently strong minded to realise that life has a great deal to offer you and that you may miss your share of experiences if you fail to make the best use of every opportunity. You therefore pursue your objectives with a fierce intensity and are prepared to commit yourself deeply and readily. You believe that whatever you would like to do or think 'you can do' - you do! It is because of this attitude that you may be considered by others as arrogant and even conceited, but its fair to say that whatever it is that you really want out of life you will put your heart and soul into it and will not take 'NO' for an answer.

You are afraid that you may not be able to realise or achieve your hopes and desires and so you insist that people should accept you as you are and appreciate your rights to anything that you aspire to.

contented with nothing

2007-04-09T02:21:00.000+08:00

its either, emptiness, fucking high, fucking sad, fucking bored or fucking pissed. can't there be the time when im like... fucking content?

I'm easily contented, jus a book, tidbits, and a seat.

the only problem is that, I jus can't be content with that contentment can I?

I have to fucking go feel things that are unnecessary and cause myself pain.

Step into a bed of thorns jus to smell a rose.

dumbshit. o btw, Im being emo again aha =) and i started to add an "a" in front of my hahas for some fucking reason.

taste the hunny, feel the bees, yea thats the way. 1 fucking drop of hunny is all worth it, at least to a dumbshit like me.

lawl. I'm wallowing in self-pity. how sad is that? how do you measure the sadness of someone who is drowning in nothingness? ahahahahaha I bet yur a smartdood who can answer this dumbshit, no? =) its alright..

(=(=(=(= smile when the shit comes, laugh when the shit goes =)=)=)=)