Saturday, April 30, 2005

the last few days... have been so hectic for me (x_x)
and i thought the hols will bring me peace!!!
well i travel back n forth up n down... n burned a hole in my pocket just for transport munny...... sadz
and every time i sit on a bus, listening to whatever my zentouch plays for me,
i look into the sky, listlessly, and sometimes a tear would just drop... sometimes

i remember how you loved the clouds, do you still love them like i do?

when im in the arcade everytime i pass the "percussion freaks 10th mix" machine
i imagine you sitting there smacking the drums
i never had the ability to play it well, but since you like it i tried, i tried...

i know how you loved the games, do you know i love the way you play them?

and when all is done, late at night, i come home tired and dried,
plop on my bed, close my eyes, and i see the way you smile...
would you smile at me if i asked you to? would you smile at me if i said i love you?

i see the way you smile, do you know i so love that smile?
i so want to protect that smile

how many times i see myself, not understanding what i fear so much,
is telling such a mighty task? or showing such a impossible ask?

i can't fight this feeling anymore.
i've forgotten what i've started fighting for.
the fight to love has becomed the will to wait,
i'll still be waiting here...

reaching out into the deep blue sky,
waiting for my wings to take flight,
every flap takes me closer,
however far that star i've chosen,
every flap towards that bright blue star

a leaf fell on 2:16 am

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