Wednesday, March 09, 2005

any other day can be called "today", onli the day before can be call "yesterday", only the next day can be called "tomorrow".
if only tomorrow never came...
if only today disappeared...
if only yesterday never existed...

then i could freeze my pain, in that time that stops, i could think something nice, then it will last forever.
alas, if that could happen, what for would i need to love? what for would i need to be wounded? what the fuck will i need those feelings for?

i told you to read my blog yesterday, you said you understood, why i called you dumb... but... i guess yur still as dumb as ever....
could you talk to me? tell me what i feel? tell me what YOU feel? give me a reason to let go?
give me an answer?
PLEASE... stop leaving me without an answer, for the nature of a human is to seek what he doesn't know, and it seems i've enter a thorny bush in search of the answer to my question.
my time has frozen, in a stasis of pain, when will that hourglass be flipped by your hand?
only waiting will tell, but i understand, in a place with no time, waiting never existed...
only a timeless void, holding a special thought, exists..

not knowing is blissful pain, for the thorns of the rose are sweetly sharp
-meng, without knowledge

a leaf fell on 10:07 pm

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