Saturday, January 29, 2005

the irony of life is that it doesnt kill you, it tortures you slowly, giving false hope, so that one day, your death would be a release.

its been a few days since you knew, even if i didnt tell you directly. this few days i have reached the extremities of human emotion, from the absolute destitute, to the euphoric happiness, the overzealous anxiousness and finally the peaceful calm.

i guess thing are not the same anymore, you still talk to me, yes i can see, but you've built a barrier that i can't seem to break. so tired i am, the long road i've walked, to reach this barrier and i dont even get a chair.

no worries =) if you want to build a barrier, go ahead, as long as yur happy, for my onli reason to live is to see the happiness of others, not of myself, im not allowed much,
winning a soccer bet : $35
winning mahjong: $21
the happiness of knowing im special to someone? : never
there are something money cant buy, but for everything else you can use that 10 bucks in yur wallet, who needs mastercard anyway?!?!

but after i said all this, haha, i still wish that barrier is not there, for you noe, yur someone special to me =), though im not to you.

i wonder why i blog, when you are not here to read it, but who really cares? onli i do =) so maybe i'll talk a little longer, maybe not.


the sparrow cried, for it broke its wing, i cried, for i lost my hope
-meng, one without hope

a leaf fell on 1:34 am

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