Tuesday, January 18, 2005

today, i wake up n bathe, brush my teeth....... woops nvr brush -_- hehe sry if i got bad breathe todae. den i wear my clothes, get wallet, wear sandals den........ den........ kao sibei lame.
wellllllll, im quite happi with moi CPS2 exercise 2, can think better today.... dunnoe y =P
the lame socket became... a boat, a burrow, a spider, a car...
the brick wall became... t-shirt design, many hills, conveyor belt, jigsaw puzzle and er... brick wall =)
the window became... doors, a lanyard, watch, and er... window =)
den afta CPS go macs n eat... sounds so mundane, the routine is boring, im boring -_-"
sometimes i wonder,
must i be special??
or shld i be myself??
is being myself being special??
cuz i dont find it that way, being myself is boring.
being myself for others... isn't that not being myself?
is it so bad to be someone yur not?
doesn't it make life that bit more interesting?
i want to tell you, this is the real me, but im afraid, im afraid i'll bore you, that you won't care then, that i'll lose that little attention you give me, you may not know, but it means so a lot to me, im scared that i'll be lost... alone... again
so i ask is it worth it?? to keep it for so long, yet not let you know??
am i SELFISH for not telling you, for WANTING not to tell you??
no its not worth it, its a f***ing waste of effort and time, but dude you know dude? its hard, just so hard...
to let it be,
to let it grow,
to let it go...

maybe, why maybe? can't i say ok or no ok? MAYBE i just have to ask you.

should the cloud shroud the sun, if the wind floud the leaves,
i shall doubt my mind, and believe my heart
-meng, believe in doubt

a leaf fell on 7:28 pm

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