thursday, it was just like any other morning, the rush, the bustle, the mindless routine, as i sat in the mrt i looked at the time, 750 am, im late again, i missed THE mrt, one that you would be in.
my mother was talking to me, i LOVE her, that naggy woman who ppl always mistook for my sister, but i wasn't listening, i wasn't hearing, i was searching... MAYBE you were late?? no. den i could surprise you again =) that look on yur face when i did that O.O oh i wanted to see it again... when i msged you "boo look behind you" O.O den i would smile =)
the essence of a ninja, not to be noticed till you strike, i always thought it was cool.
as i reached the top of the escalator i looked around, MAYBE you were waiting? no. so i walked towards block L MAYBE i would meet you on the way? no. i wished, i wish i had met you earlier, so i could talk to you earlier than anyone else. but maybe yur mother had already said "i love you" before you left yur house. like at the airport, you hugged yur parents and said gdbye but shook my hand, how i wanted to hug you, but i know that would bring me farther frm you.
i was an outsider longing to be inside (the CIRCLE of trust........ assssssh..... holeeeeeeeee).
the top lvl, lvl 6, i opened the doors, the morning sun, i LOVE it, the peaceful serenity and the basking warmth, it gives me the strength to live the day, but i wasn't listening, i wasn't hearing, i was searching, searching for you in the crowd of friends, MAYBE you were there? no. so i went to put down my stuff, i walked to the parapet to look at the sun, i saw a figure, MAYBE it wasn't you? no. the wind was just so strong..., "RK - one half" played on in my zentouch.
so i stood there, 3 paces from you, i wasn't listening, i wasn't hearing, i was searching, searching for the words to say, but i didnt want to wake your slumber, MAYBE you were dreaming of me? no. so i just stood there, 3 paces frm you, i was an outsider longing to be inside.
ha watashi aishite'ru
-meng, my words
