how i love those rainy days,
the grey sky, forboding and heavy,
the wind, slicing n chilly,
the day, long n dreary.
i slept all day, my mind was grey, so was the sky.
i just dont understand,
can't jokes be taken the positive way??
can't views be taken the right way??
can't sensitivity be thrown away when you r frens??
what r frens for if they dont joke around, talk around, poke fun at each other??
for one thing I do not mind ppl jokin bout my plight, to me i find its actually their way of showing they care, cuz being too caring is linked to weakness, at least in their minds.
maybe im too OPEN??
maybe im too DIRECT??
maybe your too sensitive?? i dunno, how would i noe if you dont say??
want me to guess?? i guess that you just suck, cuz you nvr took the time to understand
i DON'T regret rubbing your fur the wrong way, but i want you to noe its not that i want to, it is me you see, hear, feel, so maybe im too direct, fuck, im ME, nobody cant expect me to be a GENTLEMAN if im NOT, well i dont look like one....... sandals, ungelled hair, t-shirts n shorts, so why should anyone think i'll be one?? sometimes you have to reflect, the tings YOU did to me, if any, did i ever held a grudge?? sure i may mention it time n again, but do i look like im gunna piss all over you for that?? NO.
so plz go do some reflecting, it works. =)
even venus has a cold day, even pluto feels the sun's heat
a leaf fell on 12:10 am
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Well i HAVE MUST NEED to blog today, for it is a special day, a day of laughter, a day of revelation, a day of truth, a day of bird shit. congrats to the winner of "drop the shit, hit the dick" (no ZEROS were hurt in the process........ well i guess maybe one =))!!!!!!
It is none other than, a crow flying overhead living somewhere in Ang mo kio!!! woohoo!!!!!
Lets now interview the lucky dick who got hit, he said "You Know What??? I'm so SUEI kanna bird shit again." wuuuuuuu those cool words you dont here everyday, those eclectic cool words, it rings in my ears so much i laughed......... n laughed...... and laughed...... till my head popped out, plop...........
And what has the crow to say???? it said "oh i just needed, had to hit the dick, i mean it was so irrisistable, that jet black shiny gelled hair, who couldn't have spotted it?? so i did a ZERO shiki drop shot n plop......... BULLSEYE!"
and thats the end of story for you and me,
the dick fell dead as you can plainly see,
and the moral of the story for you and me,
is never gel yur hair with "follow me".
a leaf fell on 10:47 pm
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sometimes............... you just want to spend a day, sitting on a bench looking at the grass, looking at the sea, feeling a soft breeze stroking your face, looking out into nothing. i long for a simple life, whr i can be able to do what i want, when i want, when i live with simple worries, when i live with simple joys, is it that hard god?? for you to fulfill a kid's dream, its not very hard to do. just plop me in some land give me fields, give me water, give me the breeze, and give me love, is it so hard to love me god??? i guess it is, for i have lived thinking you would help me, guess your jus an odinary guy who wont help an ordinary kid. maybe someday i will understand you do not love me, so i will stop clinging on, then i can get my simple life........... but till then i am discovering how to prove that you do not love me =)
sign,
meng
a leaf fell on 10:45 pm
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my dogs...... jus got given away and i didnt feel a thing..... maybe a little lost, den my bro came back he was pissed that no one tell him the dogs were given away without consent, he quarrelled with my mum, i was doing my assignment, she cried, he slept, i broke down............ i miss them, those noisy little buggers, i miss them. i went to the kitchen, sat n drank water.... they didnt come and jump on me, the doghouse was empty, i felt empty, i cried again, 2 teardrops was all i could..... i feel useless, helpless, i wrote a poem......... all i could do...... aint i useless??
I cry, for all that I’ve let down
I cry, for all of them have gone
I cry, cause I can’t control
I cry, cause I can’t let go
I cry, so you’ll never know
I cry, hoping you’ll never go
I cry, when you looked at me
I cry, when you went from me
I cry, maybe I know
I cry, cause you never knew
I cried, because I love you
a leaf fell on 4:08 am
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a leaf fell on 3:25 am
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drained, as the night is of light, as the pond is of water, as the day is of time.
filled, with the thoughts of the day, with the thoughts of you, with the burden of time.
y do these things happen to me?? oh maybe it happens to other ppl as well.... but y must, should, would i feel this?? the pain, the excruciating, unbearable pain i felt, and am still feeling........................................................ when a person smashes a tennis ball...... well, right into yur balls.................... direct, no bloody questions asked, cept for "can i still be a father??". oh i feel REAL moody today, maybe because the day started with taking pictures of your project partner play tennis, and get the ball served rite to your **AHEM**, oh yea on a silver platter as well =) hows dat for irony??
a leaf fell on 6:29 pm
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my cousin Shi Yun... awww aint that cute?? but ITS WRONG!!!! (holding the camera that is)
a leaf fell on 12:18 am
oh yea he is such a qian bian bugger that i like =)
a leaf fell on 12:18 am
these days are the coming of the perfect storm......
a little bit of colour theory
a spoonful off creative process
a pint of understanding media
lots of design fund
and portraits to add
these are the ingredients that professor mengzio used to create the perfect little storm...
but he accidentally added CHEMICAL ZERO, and poof COCOZEROCRUNCH was formed!!!!
with a chocolaty taste that you oh so like, and a mouth that o so never stops =)
a leaf fell on 12:06 am
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haha haha haha haha haha hack hack..... hack hack....... hee =) im mad, weri weri MAD........
cuz i wake up alone, cuz i look at myself alone in the mirror, oh i so wanna see a ghost behind me, at least im not alone.....
what are you most scared of?? ghosts? horror flicks? monsties? no... its being alone, alone with the world..... im sure you've heard this shit many times from many darn lunatics before, but how would you feel if you woke up everyday, n there's no one beside you to tell you you're hated, you're despicable, you're a screwed shit... would you rather be a screwed shit than nothing??
alone, i thread, for im fated to be.....
alone, i walk, for im not for me.....
alone, i sleep, for im tired to see.....
alone, i cry, for im not to thee.....
meng - smile, it works =))))
a leaf fell on 1:22 pm
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