sup sup yao yao ppl!! achoo........ woops sry =) sometimes i feel like im a character in an anime, a evil guy..... so evil.......... his eyes r red...... "hi im kirihara akaya, my eyes r SOOOOOOOOO red cuz im ANGRY".... but thats not my case you see, the red pigmentation in my eyes r cuz by a rush of blood into the vascular veins which cause a itch reaction making me rub them like i wanna squish those buggers...... enuf bout the science already, dont you think i look like this =.= everyday??? or at some moments this -.-" when i think "man when IS tina jalani gunna stop??"
So you see red eyes can say so much, anger, sadness, happiness................. or itchyness, why dont you show me yur red eye today n we can deduce yur darn mood from it!!!!!
wo xiang ze qian ze yang bu fang kai,
ai neng bu neng yong yuan dan chun mei you bei ai?
- Jay (jian dan ai)
a leaf fell on 11:37 pm
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why do i feel this way?? this feeling is about to kill me, and everything i lived for...
everytime i see them, my friends, family and acquaintances, i sense a kind of avoidance, as if they all don't like me. all my speech, actions, thoughts all seem to be returned with hostility, fake laughter.... WHY?? if you guys dont like me SAY IT,
dont act like you all care,
dont act like im there,
dont act like im funny,
dont act like im smart,
dont say that you love me,
cuz im incapable of love,
all my life i've never had love for others,
i never knew what love was,
and i guess i'll never know,
maybe its all about me, its all my fault,
yea it is, for i am my actions,speech and thoughts,
and its all my fault that i never knew love,
for i shunned it as i shun ppl,
for i didnt go search for it, never bothered to find it,
haha hell, maybe it ran away like my nose eh??
oh yea i've heard ppl say "you will always love yur momma n papa n ...."
maybe i do, but if you do, why all the manners n courtesy??
in't loving someone about accepting who he is??
so why do we, me decieve others with our stupid manners,
so we r portrayed as a nice guy??
so we r loved by others??
well i am not a nice guy,
i hold the doors open for ppl to walk thru,
i donate generously,
i write all those fucking poems,
oh yea they had stop comin,
i say hello n goodbye,
i listen to what others have to say,
BUT this is all a BLUFF,
in actual fact, i dont mean to do these things,
what for do i help when you can help yurselfs??
oh i get it i want to be loved,
cuz maybe then i will understand,
but then FORGET IT, no one wants me to understand,
all those emails that you send??
saying that therez always someone who loves you,
fuck those, im tired of having to put up with ppl telling me they care,
im lonely in all ways possible, and im on my own,
so maybe i'll just stick to being a bastard to everione,
so i can prove i exist,
maybe i dont exist??
maybe this is all a dream i wake up and find all loves me??
FAT HOPE, go dream yur stinkin love, cuz its all a dream for me
meng, as you all call me
a leaf fell on 12:52 pm
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FF8 is SOOOOOOOO FUN!!!! =)))))))))) oh yea c'mon stupid ultimecia BRING IT ON!!!!!!!!!!! and so i get stuck on a game again....... wad about those assignments??? heehee..............................
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Shez always on my mind, from the time i wake up till i close my eyes,
Shez everywhere i go, shez all i noe.....
Rick Price - Heaven Knows
a leaf fell on 10:40 pm
sometimes, late at night, i have this feeling, one of emptiness in the oblivion of my soul, it hurts, it really does...
yau yau, veri long never blog liao, as usual =) work work is killin me, furk furk im feelin weak, zerk zerk its killin me.... but im still playin games, watchin vcds, playin tennis, swimming..... one day that big pile of work is gunna blast my ass off...
and there's that pain, that wound, it never completely heals, i drown myself in a myraid of activities, but it seems at the late of the night, it comes back to haunt me, remind me of the irony, do i have live with this, feelin the hurt every other night??? onli heaven knows...
my friends keep telling me, that if you really love her you gotta, set her free.....
rick price- heaven knows
a leaf fell on 1:24 pm
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ello ello ppl!!!!!!!!!!!! (raises hands up in the air to calm the thunderous claps of my fans) i shall now relinquish my bloody precious time jus to type a few words of inspiration for you people (they ROAR!!!! in anticipation),
thank you thank you...... lemme start.......... WANG BU LIAO WANG BU LIAO, WANG BU LIAO NI DE....... woops wrong speech =) oki lets talk about the eventful (NOT SO) last few days, badminton is good, played in moderation... as i discovered, a pulled muscle near my wrist can forbid you from doing many things, like writing, painting, playing computer games, and pah chiu cheng..woops jokin jokin =) so i got excuse not to do my painting, not to do my design fund, not to do blah blah blah, till i had to hand things up =) so i faithfully pia to do assignments especially design fund when my nose started running.....literally...... so i sleep early(11pm..... not so) n today morn do finish in an hour half, and came late to meet in skool =) as i always am..
so the moral of the stupid story is, nvr ever agree to play badminton for 5 hours straight un less you are damn bloody free for the next few days =)
wo mei na zhong ming ah lun ye bu hui lun da wo,
ai qing lao shi que huo wo zheng she me??
-chen xiao chun, mei na zhong ming
a leaf fell on 12:12 am
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Ehh sup sup ppl =), wa last few days pia ka lao sai.......
gu ren shuo "ping shi bu shao xiang, ling shi bao fuo jiao", hai i still bao until damn song......... den realize its jus my poster........ and i went to sleep before i finish my assignments..... so QUITE bad ar...... hai mus add oil liao if not fire will extinguish...... den mati...... so GAMBATTE!!
a leaf fell on 11:46 pm
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howdy, howz the hoildays been??? well got so many assignments and ahem... =) not even one done???
haiz painting..... half-done, designfund....... half-done. crappy... jus cant finish one... procastination is such a pain but i cant help thinking about slackin!!! =)
the last few days have seemed to go like how clouds seem to fade away into the forgiving blue, onli to pelter down with force from the unforgiving grey. thats precisely wad im afraid of.
reality will soon hit me like a 1000 ton weight (courtesy of ACME corp), or maybe i'll just blow up with a giant dynamite stick ( ACME is so kind to donate it =)).....
so i finally start my work today paintin paintin, dotting dotting, lalala lalilulelo, lilulalelo.........
somewhere beyond the sea, she's there waiting for me,
my love waits on open shores, and never again i'll go sailing
robbie williams- somewhere beyond the sea
i can walk, as long as the walls stop blocking me,
i can fly, as long as the ground stops holding me,
i can see, as long as the sun stops going down,
i can hear, as long as the words stop hurting me,
i can cry, as long as the tears stop holding back,
i can laugh, as long as the thoughts stop drowning me,
i can live, as long as the age stops growing free,
i can die, as long as they know that i have left,
i can love, as long as the feeling stops telling me,
i can hate, as long as you never entered my life,
but since you did, i never could,
so maybe i should thank you for the time....
a leaf fell on 10:02 pm
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